awake...

i only sleep with people i love, which is why i have insomnia...
i question whether i have a heart or rather the emotion mythically attached to the organ... i question whether this is really going to happen- am i going to be allowed to have the life i want right now? why do i have to wait?
love is such a strange thing and i refuse to accept it without question anymore. i love... i just want it unconditionally in return... no strings attached...
no mistakes...
i just panic at night when i haven't slept... i think too much... i fear my heart will die...
i want to sleep...