alone

i have so many times in my life where i feel like i give more than i receive... i sometimes wonder if it is in my head and i am just asking too much. is it asking to much to not be ignored? forgotten? i seriously just don't understand and it frustrates me immensely...
i don't know if i care too much... i do not know if you can care too much... i just know i do not like how i feel & it hurts...
i just want to be noticed; feel like i am worth something to someone i put so much worth in... i believe they are worth it; i wish i felt... "worth it" to them...

it really shouldn't be this hard... i feel like this is going to end badly...

i hate this feeling...

- posted with rancor...