worry...

i am constantly on the verge of a meltdown now...
this never ending anxiety that just wells up inside me... the inability to get anything done...
i just want to curl up and sleep... i should be out of here already, but i cannot move... i feel like i am being held in quicksand... and truly there is nothing that should be holding me back...
i want this crushing feeling in my chest to stop already... i need to get out of here and i have to do it alone...
i hate being alone... not that kind of alone... just to have someone, anyone tell me to move... push me on and tell me that i do not need all of these things that are holding me back...
i need to get rid of everything and start over...
... and i need to do it now...