sometimes you get to a point where you just cannot care anymore... that is too severe... i do care, about the person, but not the relationship... not the situation... i just know that i have to let go...
i have been called mean and heartless, but i could not have gotten to this point if something was not wrong... there has been an unfixable break in my heart- i cannot repair it without knowing in my heart that the cracks will just get bigger... i know deep down that nothing that brought me to this point is going to change... nothing is going to be repaired...
i am angry at myself for being trapped in this state- angry that i literally have no way out at the moment... angry at the pile of shit i have to sort through to finally break free...
how have i held on to this much crap for so damn long? why can't i get rid of everything?
just trash it and start from scratch...
i am angry that i am in complete financial ruin... i do not know how i am going to get out of this complete mess...
i should never have gotten to this point and i am angry i let it get this far... why?
i just know i have to go with my gut... i have been ignoring it for far too long... i have to trust myself and i have to stick to my guns...
i belong to noone but myself... i am not anyone's 'girl'... i am me and i need to do things on my own...
i want my life back...
- posted with rancor...
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